Purging The Past

For every phase of life there are two ends: nominal/supposed and the actual true end.  There's the moment when the phase has finished, and then there's the moment when you have completely cleared yourself of any emotional attachment.  Sometimes the two coincide, and sometimes you get caught off guard by the true end, having assumed its passage long ago.

In my brief experience, the real, true "over it" ending comes alongside an inexplicable need to purge.  A need to donate old clothes, recycle papers that once held meaning but now simply served as clutter.  An overwhelming urge to edit your iPhoto library, clear out old
facebook messages, and delete uncontacted phone numbers.

It's the opposite of nesting:  that phase you'd enjoyed for however long is now officially over.  Instead of settling into a space, you want to make yourself uncomfortable, in order to force a reconstruction.

This purge is unsettling and reassuring in the same instance.

It's refreshing and revitalizing.

It means you can really start analyzing the past and start moving forward.


  1. Very true lady!! What are you reading?

    1. The Wind Up Bird Chronicle by Haruki Murakami. I HIGHLY suggest it!!

    2. Kristina DominickAugust 6, 2014 at 9:56 AM

      I just read South of the Border, West of the Sun by him! Wow, I will definitely have to check this one out as well. Glad you are doing well my dear.


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I'm Madysen, born and raised in Nebraska but now living out my dreams in New York City. I moved here to go to Columbia, but living in New York has become so much more to me. This blog is a space where I can share my experiences of reconciling my midwestern upbringing with the life I live in the city. But even bigger than that, this blog serves as a space where I can try to understand where I fit into the larger social world, where I want to go in life, and how I want to go about pursuing all of these endeavors.

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