Mini-Crisis Solved

I’m lucky to have someone in my life at this moment who pushes me to work harder and dream bigger and pursue all the goals that I have. But it’s left me with a crisis that I haven’t had to deal with before:

How in the world will I ever leave my mark?

Before I’ve always assumed that I’ll follow the cliched phrase and “live on in the hearts of the people I’ve known.”  But suddenly I have all of these summer projects.  I want my words to have a little bit further of a reach.  I want to do something that people will learn from, that will affect them, that matters.  

I have a long list of summer projects, but will they matter?  What good will they do to anyone but me?  Sure I want to learn HTML, CSS, jquery, and javascript.  I want to code my own blog.  I want to read endless amounts of books.  I want to write longform pieces to maybe publish outside of this platform.  I want to wake up early and do yoga and cook delicious meals.  I want to learn to cook fish.  

But how can I make those things have an impact?

The answer I came up with is simple:  Through this blog.  

At the end of the day, I know the only way that I will live on is in the impressions I leave on others.  Maybe my crisis is stemming from wanting to have a larger circle to know.  I started this blog to deal with the differences between Nebraska and New York.  But somewhere along the line my blog has changed to be a place where I can struggle through life becoming the person that I will be.

Who knows how relatable everything I write is?  I sure don’t.  But I do know that the soul-baring I do on this little website isn’t something that is all that common.  

So at the end of the day, this blog--at least for now--is how I want to leave my mark.  I’ll learn the code to be able to create this space myself.  I’ll read in order to write about it.  I can have projects whose benefit is only to better myself, because I’ll sit down and write about my experiences later.

In the end, all we really have is the impression that we leave on one another.  No mark is too small, but why not dream big?


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I'm Madysen, born and raised in Nebraska but now living out my dreams in New York City. I moved here to go to Columbia, but living in New York has become so much more to me. This blog is a space where I can share my experiences of reconciling my midwestern upbringing with the life I live in the city. But even bigger than that, this blog serves as a space where I can try to understand where I fit into the larger social world, where I want to go in life, and how I want to go about pursuing all of these endeavors.

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